Good will

Every day brings something precious
No matter if I'm joyful or anxious.
To see the good drop in ocean of evil
Means you both have good heart and also good will.

Positivity. It's hard. But for me it is necessary. I can not deal with negative feelings and thoughts when I have nothing to balance them with. I have WILL to make my life as joyful as possible. I have WILL to see good in this world, in people and in my life. Good will doesn't only mean the will not to harm and to do good by others. It's also the will to be positive, to be proactive and to move forward. It's the will to grow instead of destroy. It's the will to love instead of neglect. It's the will to be responsible instead of careless. Etc. And using your will means making conscious decision to act in a certain way. Of course our free will is limited by life circumstatnces of different kinds. We are not really free as long we are not aware enough: of ourselves, of our envirnoment, of others. And even then our freedom is as limited as our knowledge, strength and resources. But still, when we are conscious and mature enough, we do use our will, and to an extent we are free.
I choose to be free to see love, goodness and the positive side of the coin. And I am not naive. I know many evils of our universe. I just protect my sanity. I need that balance, need to seek for good in order to see the point in this cruel world. Cause on the other hand I take my life as a gift. It had been a very unlikely event for being like me to even appear here on Earth. Given my parents had never had met, I would have never been born. And this is only one of many variables that come into the equation of the miracle that my existance is. I am not going to wash the gift I was given, this gift the Universe presented me with in its abundant generocity, down the drain. I want to live fruitful, satisfying life. I want to love, and be loved and happy. So I choose seeing love, happiness and positivity around me. And this makes sense for me. And I see this attitude as giving me a reason to live and a point to my life. Let's not waist our life, this tiny amount of freedom we can have and all the powers of our minds. Let's choose to be willing. And let's hope we are willing for good.