Pretty things.

I've got  a thing for cute things. Original, well... nope 🤣 But seriously, since I'd been little my late parents showed me their love through gifts. Everytime my mom had gone shopping, she would have always brought a little something for me. Talking conditioning... I was a spoilt, overfed, over consuming little brat. And a part of me is still that little always devouring small girl.
We know shopping can be as addicting as alcohol and food, and cigarettes. Anything that gives you pleasure, that exciting rush of dopamine, can be addicting. Yes, cleaning up and binge watching YouTube too (guilty 😛).
I am an adult now, but still little pretty, nice, cute things bring me joy. And I like showing my love for people through gifts. What I wish for the future is for me to be able to create and put some soul into what's around me. And more heart and value into what I offer people.
I feel I was sort of bribed as a child with all this stuff into giving my family love. I don't want this in my relations with people. I don't want any guilt tripping - neither others, nor me.And that calls for sound boundaries. This is something I try and work on, though it is real tough at times. Adulting...